Stress Case

I'm a worrier and I always have been.  I come from a long line of worriers.  No matter how I try to shake it, I'm just like my mom, who is just like my grandma.

Every semester, despite my almost flawless GPA, I worry I'm not going to make it through grad school.  Every time I walk the dog, I worry he is going to wiggle out of his collar or pull the leash too hard and run in the street (which he actually does BTW).  I worry about our jobs, our financial future, our health, our families.  I worry about getting pregnant and we haven't even started to try.

But at this particular point in time, my biggest worry is this fast approaching wedding.  I have no reason to be this way.  We have an amazing planner who handles all of the coordination and appointment making.  I have an amazing mom who is helping me with all of the planning and DIY projects.  I have yet to be told "no" for anything, although I am trying to keep everything within reason :)

Even with all of this help, I am constantly worried about how it is going to turn out.  I have been bombarded with so many ideas that I can't commit to anything and when I do commit, I second guess it every time.  I'm so worried that nothing will go together or I won't be able to pull it all together to be the beautiful amazing day that it is in my head.  I'm worried that I will feel hideous in a dress that I loved when I bought but now have convinced myself that it just isn't right at all.  

The only thing I know for sure is right is who I am marrying.  That's all that should matter anyway right?  But again, I am a worrier.  I'm even worried that stressing about all this makes me so superficial and it really shouldn't matter.

I'm hoping this post sends some of this stress into the universe and away from me :)

We are 31!

Some instagrams from our birthday brunch :)

Shannon Yarbrough hosted and didn't miss a single detail, down to the  place cards.

The Birthday Girls

Good Times!!

Our favorite App

This is the quickest, easiest appetizer (and it will disappear in seconds). The recipe comes from my future mother-in-law and Kyle always called it his mom's "bean-dip."  Once I got the recipe from her, I realized it's more like chili-dip but either way the boys love it.  It is becoming my go-to for any Laker game night or casual event.  It's not gourmet (or healthy), but it's de-licious :)

1 can of Dennison's Chili with Beans

1 block of Philadelphia Cream Cheese

Heat and mix together and Voila! :)

I serve it with Fritos.

You could use any brand of any of the ingredients, these are just the ones that we like.

The Countdown Begins

We have 3 months to go and it's time to get down to business.

My wedding to do's:

• Quit drinking alcohol and start drinking more water
• No more junk food!
• Actually start that workout plan I have been talking about for the last 8 months
• Have a hair and make up trial so I can decide once and for all, up or down?
• Start making my DIY items and order the things I have no hope of making myself
• Start getting together some special things for the Bachelorette weekend
• Get our rings
• Meet with florist to finalize our vision for the decor, unfortunately I have changed my mind 20 times :)

What I'm Reading

From the brother of Augusten Burroughs (author of Running with Scissors), this book is a memoir about growing up with undiagnosed Asperger's.  It's so enlightening to hear about how it felt first hand.  Understanding the Autism spectrum is so important, not only for people like me working directly with it, but for everyone.  It is becoming so prevalent in our world these days that just about everyone has come into contact with someone who is "on the spectrum".  This book has changed my perspective a little bit.  John Elder Robison doesn't consider his Asperger's a disorder.  He knows he is different but he doesn't view that as a bad thing.  What a great way to think.  If only everyone could think of our differences as just that, differences.

Cowboy Birthday

One of my girlfriends put together such a cute 2nd birthday party for her son that I just had to share a little bit of it.  

Kids and parents donned their cowboy hats and boots for the festivities and they even had pony rides :)

This is the adorable dessert table.  I spent some time here and sampled almost everything.  Cake pops, rice crispy treats dipped in chocolate, cupcakes, candy...

The party was complete with a pony and a full petting zoo. 

And last, this has nothing to do with the cowboy party but I saw this on her wall and had to snap a picture.  It's just a piece of wood that she painted and she used Anthropology door knobs to hang the twine.  This is such a cute idea for displaying kids artwork.  I might need to copy it one day :)

Wedding invitation for Mr. and Mrs. Obama

The invitations are done and on their way to our nearest and dearest.  

According to a pin I found on Pinterest, if you send an invitation to the White House you will get a congratulatory letter back from the Pres.

So, here goes nothing...I will post something if or when I receive something back :)

Here's where you send it:

The Honorable Barack Obama and Mrs. Obama

The White House

Greetings Office Room 39

1600 Pennsylvania Avenue

Washington, DC

20500